. • ☆ • .About Life . • ☆ • .

Sometimes

I feel like I don’t wanna open my eyes

I just wanted to sleep all day

Curled up in my warm hand-knitted cloth

Fantasizing in my own dream

I don’t wanna open my eyes

I hate this life

Why do I feel breathing was much easier when im into a deep sleep

Why do I suffocates as soon as I lift these eyelids

I just wanna live in dreams

Cuz it’s all made by me

I plan how I want it to be

At the end of my dream

I found a steep hill

Spread by a breathtaking view of blue water of the sea

I wanna jump

I wanna jump into it

I wanna let my soul free

But as soon as I did

My feet was anchored hardly by gravity

Oh

Please let me be like this

I don’t wanna wake up from this dream

The sun rays shone onto my room

I heard a heavy sigh  

At the end of the day

I told the denial-self of me

That I cant stay too long in dreams

I have to face this reality

Pain can be exchange into happiness

As if it was like a trade

I can do this

As I will slowly , offering my heart and soul to this bloody reality

I can do this

As dreams will guide me

I can do this

I will surely slowly breathing so I’ll not suffocating

I love me

I will never ever let anything hurt her

Anything harmful to her soul I will forbid

I will protect her soul with all my pride and dignity

I love me

Im going to give the best of me to this delicate lady

Cuz she deserve so much more than this

She deserve all the countless shining stars in this galaxy

I will surely love her soul and being

Give her the very best that I can be

Cuz I love her more than I love me

She deserve everything

Not a single tears she would shed I promise

Not a single wound that wont heal I believe

Cuz I love her

So much more than anything in this world

I love her

More than my heart and soul could offer

I love her

And I will love her

For eternity