The girl with her stethoscope Part 3

“Hold fast to dreams,
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird,
That cannot fly.” 
― Langston Hughes

8 MONTHS LATER ...

He smoked like a chimney .

His lung was weak , and it appeared . Gale suffered COPD (just like what I'd suspected) , and he needed constant medical supervision . Now he had been attending Pulmonary Rehabilitation Programme once a week . I asked him to quit smoking ; and thankfully he did . Now he looked much better ; than the day I saw him in the ED . 

Somewhere inside me , I know something was wrong with him . I urged him to tell me what it was . What caused him to start smoking . Gale was such a secretive person . He was reluctant enough to let me know what it is . He kept saying that he would have burdened me if he did . I should be more crafty after this . Applying all the skills and knowledges that I learnt to get to know something indirectly , or in another words - deceitfully 

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Today was my brand new day . I took my white coat and put them on me . The hospital authority had approved my request to move to O&G Department . Today , officially I am an O&G resident ! Thank God . I wanted so badly all these while to work as a resident here . Finally , I can make it real . 

The first day in O&G department was quite challenging . I must adapt with the envionment here . As days went by , everything went well . Thank to God because I'm doing just good . The atmosphere in O&G department was quite different . As I have been working here for few months , my heart felt closely attached to work in the labour room .When I was back then in ED , the scene reminded me of World War Two . Pools of bloods all over the pale floor . Broken drug ampoules* and plastic syringes were scattered everywhere on resuscitation trolleys* . It was a classic Oxford  definition of orderly chaos . 

But here , voice of mothers and babies crying intersect several times a day . In this battlefield , I learnt and realized things I didn't know before . This is where many people do their best with one goal of saving lives . So this is where miracles happen . I have been experiencing stunning miracles and learn pure passion from them . How people should sacrifice for their loved ones . To let their child out of the womb to see this beautiful world . How a mum sacrificing all her strength that she has , just because of her child . I learnt the beauty of love - from this chaotic room . 

A perfect life doesn't exist . Unexpected incidents happen in life , and we make irreversible mistakes too . But everytime we fall and get hurt in life , we definitely find ourselves changed in the midst of it . We realize people's in pain ,  or we realize ourselves maturing . Wouldn't it really be like the begining of love ? So even if we keep making mistakes and failing , we'll keep growing and challenging ourselves . 

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Today , I will be continuing my postgraduate study . I chose to continue my specialisation in O&G . Here , I found my life . My passion . The purity of new born babies at the labour room had always warmed my heart . I found an undecribable peace inside me . I found myself here . In O&G field . This endless journey will never cease . 

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TO BE CONTINUED 

Glossary

COPD : Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease

O&G : Obstetrician and Gynaecology

Resuscitation trolley : The Resuscitation Trolley is for the purpose of CPR (cardio-pulmonary resuscitation) and management of other emergencies in the health centre. 

Ampoule : a sealed glass capsule containing a liquid, especially a measured quantity ready for injecting.