Loving , is not easy

[1208208 , 0333hrs , Sunday ]

At certain times , I just feel that I hate myself .

It is true that loving and forgiving yourself is difficult .

At times , there were moment where you regretted all of your choices . all of your decision that you made in the past . but that was illegal . I should never feel this way . but im going to throw it out here anyway .

Regret . a word to describe .

Sometimes I really hate myself for being me . for not being able to stand up when I need to . for not being able to change when I need to . for not being able to stay hopeless , when I need to . I hate myself .

I just hate myself for being myself . for being too weak and pathetic .for being a loser , a failure .